Tuesday, 8 August 2017

jfk

i've always had a hard time reading between signs of interest or genuine politeness.

Sunday, 6 August 2017

beneath you



diy camo les paul

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diy camo les paul

the moon-earth design for project escape

the mighty stripsol

bare wood

primer

bosny camouflage no. C002 khaki

first layout

bosny camouflage no. C003 forest green

second layout

bosny camouflage no. C005 earth brown

last layout

bosny camouflage no. C006 zero black

headstock

body

bone nut upgrade

bone nut gluing

pup cavity grounding

pots cavity grounding

pup grounding

pup installation
single humbucker configuration
neck pup used as bridge so poles are in the middle part

wiring
single volume pot configuration

project finished

gunjam

gunjam
five motions of steady strength (2006)
sen drin rex john pato












five motions of steady strength
ep launch
20060527

friends in attendance
sheena & karen

 signing for jess of pentavia

..in a long time



you know those expectation vs reality thing? yea, they never seem to equate. but sometimes, when the timing is right, reality exceeds expectation. i could feed from this for awhile. let's see what's more in this.



"i haven't been this scared in a long time.."



it is.
<this will destroy you>

Saturday, 5 August 2017

dirty dozen

independence day


i paid a lot of prices
been suffering every single day
but everything's still not enough
still purchasing pain to stab my heart

had attempted to perform assertions
intimidated by your sharp denials
you didn't notice that i'm slowly dying
a ray of light has fallen into nothing

is this my
destiny
this will not
set me free
are all these
assigned for me
these will never set me free

you'll fly away in time
as said on your design
you're freezing up my heart
my life is on the line
was never on my arms
our story is the worst
you'll recognize me once
you're pickin' up my dust

your return seemed like an air to breathe in
now your proximity is makin' it harder
my side of story will never have closure
for our story never had beginning


2005.08.05-06_27_independence day

he estado intentandolo todo el tiempo

so on what point of this should we ever resume?
are you thinking, after 365 moons?
i know you're not, and i ain't either
but all what's left are fires that burn us weaker

you might say i'm turning my back
you might think i'm savin myself, no.
for i once saw the answer for our when's and where's
and believe me, i was there

all the screws are way loose
while we stand naked
things were never ugly
and will never be
but if you would look at my coffin closer
you'd notice that last nail on the corner

if you can still remember
the last of the lasts of us
i was near unconscious (we all were)
felt i was with thee (or was i?)
i don't know about you, but it was stellar for me

so i'm saying this gun is for you
but the bullets are for me
yes, you heard it right
i've been trying all my time
all my time


2010.08.04_10-06_he estado intentandolo todo el tiempo

500

..and i know why


yea, what this life is all about?
blinded eyes still see the pain..
the suffering..the tears kept inside
now finally in the range of my sight
where are you friend?

seems you ended up ending us up
treasuring every wisdom conveyed
the courage..the screams you held in..
now finally in my range of hearing..
make clear of them!

i've ceased to think of your last words on me
but still clutching on your memory
only God knows how much i cried
hell, i cried!
been through pretty much a lot of shit since then
man, you started these all..bring an end..!

tell me when it's done!
tell me when it's done!
when everything's going to be (gone/won)!
tell me when it's done!

no one's ever suited the picture
shattering griefs and a dying man..
the life..your life's not to leave..
now we finally lived to smile at it
but still..


2007.08.04_500_..and i know why

siete años

the fire is out.almost.


and so we had it once
and yes, you heard it right
things have been convincing lately
that this is from my last life
i'm not sure how to do it
but let me handle it this time
four pairs of summer and autumn
are starting to commit sins for a night

your goodbye never got me home
i swear on my life, it's true
if it wasn't for destiny
i'd still be bleeding for you
cause no vault had been locked
the door's still wide open
that year's still on my clock
and i want it forgotten

now my gauge is saying
i'm having a hard time breathing

you started to apologize
then i started asking why's
and you were just repeating your words
i was not alright
when i said,"it's alright."
believe me, that was a fake smile i wore

somethin's droppin on this paper
i'm pretty sure it's not red
i've done no leverage
can you please tell me i'm dead?
it is time for my vindication
but how the fuck can i deliver
if i'm so dreary from asphyxiation
on your words that sounded evil?

can you still visualize
the stairway and the tower
the moon and her power
your eyes
your tears
your words
your lips
and my world that crashed into the realm of make-believe?
it's not alright.
it's not alright.


2010.08.04_10-07_the fire is out.almost.

Wednesday, 2 August 2017

mindfucked

20100914



i'm receiving a buttload of serious mindfucking today.