lyk me

this day ain't over yet
i'm scared
i've got to hold on
to keep myself going on

what if i go now
i ain't scared
i know the bright lights'll keep me
while i wait for you

we all get there
i'm just excited
hold on to your seats
don't fall on your knees like me

like me
you like me
you don't like me
like me
don't be like me
i'll be waiting
on the far end
for you


2004.01.09_A03-02_lyk me

behind the words from an escape artist

waiting for nothing i think
just a day better than now
will make me sigh
remembering every single thing
just your face in front of mine
can bring me to my sky

frustrations
converted into deaath
promises
broken! i left me with nothing on my hands

the air you breathe
is the one i wished to the stars
to be mine
the heart you keep
is the one i missed to take
now i'm left behind! i'm left behind!

oceans that are between us
torturing the whole me
i can't escape
words from you and my mind
can't perform nothing better than
letting me wait

i'm waiting on my own
though i can't
been swimming on my own tears
i'm sinking
been sinking
sinking


2005.01.09_A09-02_behind the words from an escape artist

mute

heavens red with flames
been swimming in a daze
stunned in a look
private smiles

clouds forming like birds
flying so freely
in your eyes i see them
fictitious

i can't remember
we had a good time
cause we never had
anything before

a bizaare kind of nothing
so odd to mean something
you never spoke straight
to my face that's always waiting
i haven't found your voice
so sacredly out of the choices
i never heard your voice
kept under your blanket of something always hidden

can't walk, the stair's so dark
your windows tinted with shadows
can't see through your walls
so opaque

heavens red with flames
with flames
heavens red with flames
burning
burning


2005.01.06_P09-09_mute

manage

seperated by a wall of silence
my mouth shut by your presence
your eyes are glowing like a thousand lights beneath the sun
and i feel like rain, let me pour over you

distincted by our own silence
known by those secret smiles we hide
now take me to your world of stars, i want to see
make me feel like i'm the one you're looking for

you can see that i can't manage
my tormented heart is still damaged
by those weary thoughts
of all things painful

let your face be the nest of my eyes
let me stare at those never-broken smiles
a glint of your shine can make me believe
that all my darkness were all gone
all gone

let me..


2005.01.06_P09-08_manage

check that.

Fr

francium. with 22-minute isotope half-life.

dream catcher 20180109

the trypophobia dream in the office..with the giant petroleum jelly.

sphere

from deep waters to deep space

the culprit

20180106-2210

double tap.

the finishing shot.

self betterment

with you.

everyshit ends

i don't know who will finish first the race
but we will all reach the finish line, only in different cases
nobody will be left standing
we will all end up lying

six feet under the surface we step on
close eyed, coz life doesn't go on and on
it has to come to an end
because everyshit ends

(that) only time will tell who dies
earth tells who will rest
heaven will cry
but only god knows who's next

death is nothing but a very long sleep
so live your fucking life to the fullest, before you lie six-foot deep
everyone has to wait for their turn
but what if it's my turn?

to lie, inside that fucking wooden box
you cry, but you can never bring me back
so pray to god for my soul
because we all know

what if it is his turn to lie?
then it is her turn to cry?
what if it is your turn to die?
but shit, what if it's mine?

nobody can say it
nobody can reveal it
nobody can tell it
only god knows about it
we just wait
and wait


2004.01.03_P03-09_everyshit ends

basta.

basta.

year 1

a year's worth of memories squeezed to a quarter.
may we make more of 'em.
we will make more of 'em.