it's over

i've been following you for quite a long time
and i think we could've had been going fine
it's stupid of me
i'm giving up
it's so stupid of you
coz you are just so fucking dumb

i am growing sick of this chasing
i am tired of this long waiting
this is the time
that i should leave
this is the time
that i should forget you everything

it's over
it's over
so long my so called friend
i'll run away now
and survive somehow
this shit that
i've been through

i know you didn't mean to hurt me
but things are changing, i'm so sorry
my felings changed
and rearranged
i think you cried
while i wave you goodbye

it's over
it's over
it's over
it's over


2004.01.16_A03-07_it's over

putrefaction

i need to
forget everything
and let me live again
my despair
forcing me to kill
these thoughts of loss
bringing me to my grave
i feel no one around

it's not so amusing
you ran away
everything now's unreal
(takes me away / all fades away)

away from everything
and every nothing i've known
my flames
burning each of me
your voice so cold
but will never be enough
to wash my fire out

away
away
never will i find again
the draft of your face
rotten
inside a box of everything forgotten

away


2005.01.16_A09-05_putrefaction

pallas turns 3

the ever immortal
greek goddess
isn't immortal
after all
i just came back from hell
you ain't even there


2015.01.16_pallas

salt

i know i don't have to go
but i must leave
i can't hold on anymore
i'll let go

i've been waiting long
for this bleeding to stop
the pain is biting in
ain't been happy with what i have

though i know i'm not alone
not the only one going through this
it's not fair, this world's cold
i'll keep on searching
searching new things

death is nothing but a test
a test if you can leave the rest

we all feel this pain
everybody is the same
i want to be different
keep on looking for something different

you will know me like this forever
these tears will be flowing forever
time will tell if it's over
i think i'm over, i am over

no one cares
i'll leave you now
i can't sleep
i'll leave you now
no one cares
i'll leave you now
i can't sleep


2004.01.15_A03-05_salt

read between the lines

2011.01.12_11-01

eyes of sunshine
lies of goldmines
in this dream of mine

lust for dinner
trust them sinners
more guns waitin in line

put me to sleep
put me to real sleep
and grant me real dreams that i forget in the morning
it's time to keep
me away from reality
oh, and if you may, for the mean time, keep it that way

broken thunder
paper power
enter slumber

heroic mind
tragical kind
greeding to-get-her


2011.01.12_11-01

fyt

people change
human change
i am the only one who does not change

are you scared
don't be scared
i'm not scared
i'm not scared to die

the race is not over yet
do not give up
your life is going better
then try to hold on

you've got to fight and fight
fight and fight and fight and fight
until the end

take me now
to another place
i'm sick and tired
of all these shit around

fuck these things
that bother me
take these off
off my chest again

i am not the only one
we are millions up in here
waiting for the same thing
the right time for us
get a grip


2004.01.13_A03-03_fyt

my death on my land

a mind full of words
as you tied down my arms
there, i walked through the crowd
to face destiny

my last farewell
not enough
to capture the sense of my death
your fault, your loss

i've done all
for all
for all

you are killing
the most precious stone
you are shooting me
on my own home
no one can say
no one can foretell
what could it be
if you let me live in this hell

now, the history's unlocked
through my things that you kept
but still not enough and never
will it be

my body into ashes
engraved in different places
are my words
of goodbye


2005.01.12_A09-04_my death on my land

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rizal

biception

you won't realize which muscles you use for every movement until one of them starts to hurt like hell.

2007.01.10_75

my heart lies, unease
fallin debris
from a wound shot in my head
makes me feel like i'm dead

ashes had been blown away
bein lost with my dismay
tomorrow might never come
i need to savour these

go laugh at my words
and take over my world
you don't need to be my hero
as you wake up
i hope you figure out
what i am about
i don't have to (say it / scream out)
(a little time's enough)

and the silence goes on
hope it won't last for far too long
though my dormant mouth still lingers on the surface
i still try to make you feel like you're the perfect one..
(quit wond'rin if you're still wond'rin)

let's not breathe a word
for i'd dreamed that you've said everything
but you never meant anything
yes, you didn't mean anything!

a telephone ring might quite bring my life back!


2007.01.10_75

perdition

main source of frustrations
heartbreak delivery on the go
so accessibly annoying
footprints no one can see

it's your face
i'll never be lying

can't be handled by my perceptions
never, never to wake up no more
it's different from
nothing, all're the same

it's you, you
i'll never be seeing again

with my broken sighs you smile
i have never been this vile
as early as i saw the sun
you freaked me not just once
in your head
you're thinking you've just had
the sparkle of your star
while i'm this far with scars
no more forgiveness
no more selflessness

your goodbye's not so good
your goodbye's not so good
no more forgiveness
no more, no more, no more, no more, no more.


2005.01.11_A09-03_perdition

lyk me

this day ain't over yet
i'm scared
i've got to hold on
to keep myself going on

what if i go now
i ain't scared
i know the bright lights'll keep me
while i wait for you

we all get there
i'm just excited
hold on to your seats
don't fall on your knees like me

like me
you like me
you don't like me
like me
don't be like me
i'll be waiting
on the far end
for you


2004.01.09_A03-02_lyk me

behind the words from an escape artist

waiting for nothing i think
just a day better than now
will make me sigh
remembering every single thing
just your face in front of mine
can bring me to my sky

frustrations
converted into deaath
promises
broken! i left me with nothing on my hands

the air you breathe
is the one i wished to the stars
to be mine
the heart you keep
is the one i missed to take
now i'm left behind! i'm left behind!

oceans that are between us
torturing the whole me
i can't escape
words from you and my mind
can't perform nothing better than
letting me wait

i'm waiting on my own
though i can't
been swimming on my own tears
i'm sinking
been sinking
sinking


2005.01.09_A09-02_behind the words from an escape artist