you get better

Joan Alexandra Molinsky Rivers

diy paracord bracelet

Would you Ever have kNown those worDs were for You?

so i was in saguijo last night, wearing my angels and airwaves moon man shirt. and in between sets, i went outside to light a stick. after i'm done with it, i went back and as i went in, distraction was playing. and this girl near the door stared at my shirt, stared at me, then stared back at my shirt..like i was selling merch. and i couldn't smile at her. because the lyrics seeped through my ears and i thought about you.

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credits:

video snipped from https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Thy_8CNKEBk

gral

gral

kaibigan, pagod na 'kong magtanong

kami, san ka ba talaga naroroon?

marami kang nasaktan

na'ng ikaw ay bigla na lang lumisan

tulad ko, di manlang nakapagpaalam

ang daya mo, bakit ka nang-iiwan?

kaibigan, ngayon ko lang napapansin

mas marami ka palang alam na malungkot na awi tin

at ngayon wala nang pagkakataon na maawit

dahil ang alam naming lahat andyan ka na sa langit

bilanggo sa tanong

kaibigan, kumusta'ng pakiramdam

naaalala no'ng ika'y nasasaktan 

ang luha mo, ang luha ko, ang luha ng magulang mo

kinukubli, tinatago, walang may gustong sumuko  

ngunit bakit biglang nagkaganon

hindi ko mapilit ibalik ang panahon 

at sa isang saglit, nakulong ka sa isang kahon

ulan mula sa langit, lulan ay mga tanong

ang 'yong awit at tinig, saan muling maririnig?

saan at kailan at kanino kami hihiling?

paano at anu-ano ang dapat na itaya

upang diwa nating lahat muling magkita-kita?

asan ka?narating mo na ba ang hangganan?

paki-bulong sa akin, pa'no ba pumunta d'yan?

2010.08.18_10-10_gral

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tatlong taon ang lumipas bago ako nakasulat. isang dekada na, kaibigan.

goodbye, wendy.

"I saw how you laugh to yourself when his drumming was way out of beat. Laugh more often like that. Goodbye."
-Wendy

20170816-1835

CSI

you will be the face on my flora & fauna gaia tattoo..

killing machine

i cannot just leave you here
commited under your skin
deadly weapon
i wanna be with you
all night
i'll never make you cry
up to the moment you're mine

it all turned out so bad
it was you who fucked my life
skillfully trained
you head is growing bigger
further
as far as i know
you are searching for your shadow

look around
it's only me
you can trust
but fuck, you fucked me
hell on ground
of your world
but it turned out
to be your home
my vengeance is coming
be sure to make your action

my entire life was damaged
it was you who brought it


2004.08.14_A07-05_killing machine

muli part 2

muli part 2

muling sinanay ang sariling mag-isa

medyo nagsisising ikaw ay nakilala pa

at ngayon, kailangang tawirin ang bawat araw

na nalalaman na may isang ikaw

walang sinabi ang lumipas na dekada

sa isang gabi tila lahat ay nabura

pinipilit ang sarili na itago ang damdamin

kasiyahan ay ipagkakait ko ba?

ipagkakait ko ba?

muling luluha

muling iibig

muling susubok sa landas na mapanganib

tatlong oras na akong namamangha

katotohana'y lumabis sa inaakala

at ngayon, maghihintay ako sa 'yong pasya

kung iiwanan lamang ba sa alaala

inabangan bawat pahayag ng 'yong labi

mga mungkahing tila ba walang pasubali

unti-unting nalululong sa iyong mga ngiti

ang sarili ay ipagtatanggol ko ba?

ipagtatanggol ko ba?

muling aasa

hanggang hantungan

magtitiwala sa walang katiyakan

muling luluha

muling iibig

muling susubok sa landas na mapanganib

naninirahan

sa panaginip

maaari bang makiraan sa 'yong idlip

20170811-muli part 2

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i don't know why i wrote this. it's not possible that i like her that much. i barely know her. maybe i'm just excited with the idea of having someone again. good night.

1 billion seconds

1 billion seconds = 31.7097919838 years

0.7097919838 years = 259.074074087 days

259 days from May 31, 2017 = February 14, 2018

siete años

pierce your tounge to shut your mouth
all unsaid must be left unknown
talk to your walls, scream, shout
or show me your face and see it blown

exemption isn't available for anyone of you
just try and do what you are told to do

justify the means of life alone
omnipotence never led me to my throne
create a whole new hollow world

get it,get it, forget it's right
unleash your hello, beat it with goodbye
destroy the bridges, don't just burn them
on your own skin, with your own name

xenophobe on your fake surroundings
heed the words of the one speaking
automatic scheme for breathing
name your color, here's your makeshift wings

skip those faces, friend
earn these verses and
vanquish the end

must i feel down?
infidels now has the crown
gold amassed by others
satisfies their thirst

lower your swords
vow down to the lords


2010.08.11_10-09

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pato ej joc gudo xhan sev migs lv

sweet mountain

it was a friday, four years ago, when first contact was made.

ugh grunt

i can't believe i let a total stranger rearrange my furniture..

impressed 897

tonight
i'm stuck by your bright image
so harmless

surprised
by the way your eyes shine
noticeably fine

how dare me talk to you like that
how rare those questions that i've asked
how great you are, finished all the words you've said so good
i'm impressed
i'm impressed by you

who are you
why am i thinking about you
is it true
that i want to walk after you
coz you made me (remember / realize)
those things (that i forgot / i just don't know)
i'm impressed
i'm impressed by you

your smile
can really sweep me off my feet
honestly

your words
and everything you showed me
the best

you're so true
you're so true
you're so


2004.08.09_P07-10_impressed 897