patodpoorkid

Sunday, 9 July 2017

di na malaman kung paano magtatago
susuko na lamang ba
di maintindihan kung paano nangyari
ang lahat lahat

pagtingin ko sa ulap
katahimika'y di mahanap
ano ba ang dapat kong gawin
upang matapos aking paghihirap

hindi na maniniwala
sa sinasabi ng hula
langit ko'y naglaho, na
parang malaking bula

maruming hangin
magulong damdamin
nagsama-sama
para ako'y sirain

di malaman kung ano ang pakinabang
ng ginagawang pagluha
naubos na ang aking nararamdaman
ganap na manhid na

sinira na
wala ng
pag-asa
sinira na

2004.07.09_T06-10_lagoon

i can function with 0 sleep

some think it's bullshit talk but more are willing to put it to test.

20170709-0106

upperhand achieved!

Saturday, 8 July 2017

2007.02.19_84

and all of the words that i've kept now means nothing
i'm sorry i don't have anything
not a thing to share
not a thing to give
but not enough to treat me like this

i'm waiting
and have waited too long
but not long enough to (ignore / kill) me like this

and as your spirit still lies upon me
and as your voice still haunts me
for the past hours
i had to learn to discard the now unwanted things that i'm starting to hate
now that the secrets of your silence are revealed
i have to forget all things from our past, even the scar that you left me with the hope of your return
maybe you never realized that i might see through your absence until this very second
that i don't want to do nothing but burn you down until your ashes turn to ashes
and blow them away upon the seas that kept us apart

severed hands lay upon the wings of the wind
waving, hoping, wishing for your return
but then the horizon reminds me of your ashes that i myself blew away
so your face flashes before my eyes to witness me pull the trigger
to witness me fall to the water
hoping it would bring my corpse nearer to your ashes
now crashes to redemption of the proximity once mine

2007.02.19_84

fwjf

fuck, wendy. jesus. fuck.

Thursday, 6 July 2017

ysabel

climbing to the sky
to keep you by my side
climbing to the stars
it's not easy

climbing to the mountains
afraid of falling down
i know you can't come down
it's not easy

you shine on me
oh, can you take me
can you save me
it's not easy

i'm kinda
ready to die for you
it's not easy
you're kinda
"who the hell are you?"
oh, it's not easy

taking every chance
don't wanna waste my time
it's you i still can't find
it's not easy

climbing to the sky
afraid of falling down
why don't you try to come down
yeah, it's not easy

i'm running out of stars to climb
i'm running out of life and time
it's still you i try to find
on and on and on and on and on

ysabel
i'm ready to die for you
ysabel
it's not easy what i do
ysabel..ysabel..

2004.07.04_T06-07_ysabel

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"how could i notice only now?"
"i wanna touch your face just to know if you're real"
"in every crowd i look for your face"

Sunday, 2 July 2017

love burn

a night alone
in a place i've never been before
so many strangers in sight
a blessed air to breathe tonight

i sat beside
a stranger i've seen in green
the night is young with air so thin
sweet dirty sweat touched our skin

crash and burn
while my hands barely touched yours
and my eyes chased yours..a tear, such a lovely moist
too shy to think that this night is ours
too afraid to hear a word from your mouth
and there we stayed together
your smiles spelled forever

this heart of mine
a safety companion
and i made you smile with no flowers at all

and as the night had gone cold
and both our names were told
and the looks were now sweet
and my feet got swept away
but your words so pleasing
from your lips that looked so juicy
with your eyes that shined like jewelry
and as we walked on by
the night suddenly said goodbye
and you waved and smiled
and i almost died
and that's it..that was it..that was it..
that was it..that was it..the beginning..

2006.07.02_61_love burn

2007.07.01_96

"sabay-sabay, sama-sama tayong gumapang mula sa kawalan ng malay sa mga bagay na gusto nating malaman.
umakyat patungo sa isang kamalayan na hindi natin inaasahang magiging ganito kahirap.
nakikisimpatya sa isa't-isa para magkaroon ng lakas ng loob na magpatuloy, na huwag bumitaw sa kamay ng bawat isa sa paligid.
pero bakit kailangang humantong sa ganito?
bakit ngayong malapit na tayong makatayo sa sarili nating mga paa, kailangan pang biguin ang pinakamahina na pinaka-nangangailangan ng tulong?
bakit kailangang iwanan ang isa na walang makakapitan?
bakit kailangang titigan siya habang bumabagsak?
dahil ba sa pagiging inutil?
salamat mga 'kaibigan'!"

2007.07.01_96

robot

still thinking of you
still wishing what i thought is true
still can't manage to
ignore every single thought of you

still dreaming of you
still craving to be living with you
still can't forget you
still standing still, waiting for you

look down
look at me
you're too high
can't you see

don't you know that there's someone down here
looking up to you
don't you know that my wounds won't heal
if you
if you leave me standing still

still wanting you
still doing everything i can do
still can't reach you
but still i'm trying to

i don't know what to do
can't accept what's true
how can i reach you
if you're flying too high
while you're floating up above
i'm standing on the ground
wishing you would come down here
waiting for you as i stand still

2004.06.30_A06-10_robot

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yvette barbra

smileys

midnight falls
but i know you're still awake
staring at the ceiling
you don't know what you're seeing

feeling pity
tumbling around your bed
thinking of somebody
someone who i wish was me

the whole world knows you
your lips and killer smiles
but i know you're not satisfied
living your own life

you're so happy
in front of everybody
but you see a stranger
when you look at the mirror
you feel pain
and you cry alone
it's always raining
inside your home
it's always raining
inside your room

destiny
is not very friendly
you need somebody
someone who i wish was me

you
you surround my world
i wish you could see
i really wish you could

2004.06.30_A06-09_smileys

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karla ysabel