and all of the words that i've kept now means nothing
i'm sorry i don't have anything
not a thing to share
not a thing to give
but not enough to treat me like this
i'm waiting
and have waited too long
but not long enough to (ignore / kill) me like this
and as your spirit still lies upon me
and as your voice still haunts me
for the past hours
i had to learn to discard the now unwanted things that i'm starting to hate
now that the secrets of your silence are revealed
i have to forget all things from our past, even the scar that you left me with the hope of your return
maybe you never realized that i might see through your absence until this very second
that i don't want to do nothing but burn you down until your ashes turn to ashes
and blow them away upon the seas that kept us apart
severed hands lay upon the wings of the wind
waving, hoping, wishing for your return
but then the horizon reminds me of your ashes that i myself blew away
so your face flashes before my eyes to witness me pull the trigger
to witness me fall to the water
hoping it would bring my corpse nearer to your ashes
now crashes to redemption of the proximity once mine
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