2007.02.02_80 untitled

as something ended
something started
the flight of yesterday
you made it so much easier to handle
by letting me feel that something
that something is still alive

i thought then
we were building
a concrete wall-like
mutual agreement, or somewhat
a unity of our forces
our forces together!

i asserted our conversations
maintained their meaning
made sure it'd be useful
but then it made no meaning, no use at all!

i've built a foundation
and thought it could withstand
the storms that would knock us apart
but you became the thunder
outbroke from furious silence
and brought me cipher!

you made me wear a mask of shame
it gained me nothing but nothing
i see myself now thumb-small
being eaten by your simple words
what more of the scorns
that are surfacing on my visions?
it made me realize that the inevitable is inevitable!
that we were never building anything at all!
that no agreement existed!
that no forces were united!
that no foundation was made!
that you never let me feel something that's alive!
it was only mine! it was only mine!
and it's been dead all along!
it's been dead all along!!!

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