ss01

oh fucking hell, saria!

drumheads

i  wish i could share this feeling with you.

about last night

dabs and the mauuten men

20170728
Verizon Alabang PH 10-year anniversary 

01 soundcheck



02 fake plastic trees / closer i get to you



03 skit



04 don't look back in anger



05 skit



06 nothing compares 2 u / scar on the sky



07 like a stone



08 vindicated



09 skit



10 the fight is over



11 skit



12 telepono


13 skit



14 creep

land your valentine

the clock is ticking
my gloc is clicking
are we dying?
we are! we are!

now this is the last
our time is done
our ties are served well
in arms still friends
now this is the last
this is us.

is today what was tomorrow?
yes! fuck! it is!

this is our story
fast-becoming past
now don't watch the clock
do what it does
for it's moving so fast
we can't fix it with trust

we don't have wings
we're not really what we think we are

we aren't reduced
no comrade is lost
no bad blood stain
but the honest consequences
were separate pain
individual gain

we're still wishing it would come back
a time when nothing matters that much
when with young blood and little money
we became what they call family

this isn't giving up
this is growing up
this isn't goodbye
this is realization
now this is the last
this is us.


2010.07.29_10-05_land your valentine

sup wruh?

ARE YOU HERE?

untitled 13.0

it's raining outside
i'm feeling cold
i think i need you back
thinking of you
making me old
i really need you back

please talk to me
and tell me
what i'm feeling is still normal
been calling you lately
and it's not easy
to stay away from your doorbell

maybe you should talk
and stop smiling there
maybe you should teach me
how to behave when you're away
maybe you should tell me
that you would stay
and you will never leave me
throughout these better days

the rain stopped
still i feel cold
please please please come back
dreaming of you
is making me go crazy
i really want you now


2004.07.26_P07-01_untitled 13.0

deep and profound choice

a sound so eerie
a dreaded voice
stuck in this grate
i really haven't got a choice
but to stay here
with my nebulous sight
and a mordant fear
where it's always night

an onrush of the mob
will bring dodgers to the ground
they will callously kill
everyone they see
a prisoner like me
(will / won't) outlast

conflagration
coined by a thief
i saw him coming
but i was captured by the chief
it's ok here
at least i'm alive
though my precious thoughts are
intimidated by the cadence of the howl

i cannot foretell
what i can forethought
i cannot forbid
my self to loathe
i'm cadaverous
can't help bu fulminate
what is happening
what the fuck

i won't outlast
i won't outlast
i will not outlast
i will not outlast
i will not outlast
i will not outlast


2004.07.23_O06-07_deep and profound choice

patient zero

patient zero

melee

stop
everything's enough
stop
just leave me here
they
they're all the same
they
just left me here

it's not ok
i'm not fine
it's not alright to be left in line

i
i'll never loom
left
in this empty room
my
sight is gone
burnt
by the fucking sun

grasped by this moment
to take everything
my brothers
were stolen
my solitude
is all i have
i'm dead
i'm dead

me
the dreamer
lured
by these senseless schemes
they
they're all the same
they
they left me here

my serenity
was broken
solidarity
fading away
my fucking face
overlaid with fears
my thoughts
are in a melee


2004.07.22_O06-06_melee

G.I. Jane

goodbye illness, goodbye pain
goodbye illusion, goodbye jane

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and so i just will
pray to betelgeuse
just up until
the chaos in my head seize

2014.06.25_betelgeuse

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kurisutar

your message went across as clear as crystal.

i'm in!

i always fantasize this idea that i'd have this one number on my phone that i can call anytime i wanna get the fuck away for good. like they're trying to recruit me for something--a project, or a job..a syndicate..a coup, or something worse..and i was just waiting to decide, eyeing for the perfect moment of "the last straw scene" and just go, "fuck it!" *beep beep beep*, "hello? i'm in."

wwr

[as one famous comedian had put it, when someone says you're an asshole, sometimes you just have to sit back and think..and mutter, "shit. i am." and it totally makes sense because you'd be a bigger one if you're not aware of it.

now from the event from yesterday and looking way further back, i keep thinking..wendy was right. she was right all along. i bend people. i bend people backwards like a metal pipe after tossing them in the furnace.]

-excerpt from a newspaper

john says to live above hell

distant enemies
i see them run towards me
carrying their swords
planning to stab me

i see their eyes
burning in flames with hate
broke down my disguise
they're coming

i don't know exactly
what they want from me
but i know from now
i will never be free again

self-consciousness
making me weak
making me fail
self-destruction
forcing me to run out and bail
it's not alright
what i am feeling inside
i can't deny
everyone fucked my life

angry voices
i hear them loud inside me
sharp blades of teeth
grinding and grinding

hits of fists
received by my innocent face
my body covered with blood
i can't take these

spinning around
looking around
no one's around
no one's around
no one's around
no one's around
no one's around
but i feel like someone's decided to take me down
it's not alright
what i am feeling inside
i can't deny
everyone fucked my life


2004.07.17_O06-03_john says to live above hell

homeostasis

homeostasis

no, not this time

it was quite a surprise
coming from you this time
well, nothing's left to compromise, i guess

i've got no more pet peeves
hiding up my sleeve
and tonight, you really gave in, and gave up..us..

if this is the position that i wanted
i wouldn't feel this, would i?
and if you don't matter to me anymore
i wouldn't be here in my car
'side this window
and these raindrops
with the city lights
singin' this sad sad song

i was so cool with everything
didn't realize your pain
i am still believing
you won't be leaving

and tomorrow
it's mourning
morning
mourning..


2010.07.12_10-03_no, not this time

no mercy

summer i woke up to witness
something strange rising from the horizon
i saw it clear, just didn't pay mush attention
so, it broke in..

unnoticeably painful
a single mistake now means torture
a turmoil from one's heart now penetrating on mine
it's here! beware!

show respect, for i once conquered
show mercy, no one's to suffer
we're all here, we all fear
dreams of angels to falter
don't throw it all on me!

the warning was clear
why did i just stare?
the warning was clear
i should've snared

perfect pattern of mystery
exculpated all's self excluding me
how did it all end up with such sullen grace?
as i disappear!

no respect, for one as me
no mercy, for once, i worry
alone here, i fear real
my dreams of angels now falter
why throw them all on me?!


2007.07.10_98_no mercy

#nuribean

donnie

you just became my trump card.

lagoon

di na malaman kung paano magtatago
susuko na lamang ba
di maintindihan kung paano nangyari
ang lahat lahat

pagtingin ko sa ulap
katahimika'y di mahanap
ano ba ang dapat kong gawin
upang matapos aking paghihirap

hindi na maniniwala
sa sinasabi ng hula
langit ko'y naglaho, na
parang malaking bula

maruming hangin
magulong damdamin
nagsama-sama
para ako'y sirain

di malaman kung ano ang pakinabang
ng ginagawang pagluha
naubos na ang aking nararamdaman
ganap na manhid na

sinira na
wala ng
pag-asa
sinira na


2004.07.09_T06-10_lagoon

i can function with 0 sleep

some think it's bullshit talk but more are willing to put it to test.

20170709-0106

upperhand achieved!

2007.02.19_84

and all of the words that i've kept now means nothing
i'm sorry i don't have anything
not a thing to share
not a thing to give
but not enough to treat me like this

i'm waiting
and have waited too long
but not long enough to (ignore / kill) me like this

and as your spirit still lies upon me
and as your voice still haunts me
for the past hours
i had to learn to discard the now unwanted things that i'm starting to hate
now that the secrets of your silence are revealed
i have to forget all things from our past, even the scar that you left me with the hope of your return
maybe you never realized that i might see through your absence until this very second
that i don't want to do nothing but burn you down until your ashes turn to ashes
and blow them away upon the seas that kept us apart

severed hands lay upon the wings of the wind
waving, hoping, wishing for your return
but then the horizon reminds me of your ashes that i myself blew away
so your face flashes before my eyes to witness me pull the trigger
to witness me fall to the water
hoping it would bring my corpse nearer to your ashes
now crashes to redemption of the proximity once mine


2007.02.19_84

fwjf

fuck, wendy. jesus. fuck.

ysabel

climbing to the sky
to keep you by my side
climbing to the stars
it's not easy

climbing to the mountains
afraid of falling down
i know you can't come down
it's not easy

you shine on me
oh, can you take me
can you save me
it's not easy

i'm kinda
ready to die for you
it's not easy
you're kinda
"who the hell are you?"
oh, it's not easy

taking every chance
don't wanna waste my time
it's you i still can't find
it's not easy

climbing to the sky
afraid of falling down
why don't you try to come down
yeah, it's not easy

i'm running out of stars to climb
i'm running out of life and time
it's still you i try to find
on and on and on and on and on

ysabel
i'm ready to die for you
ysabel
it's not easy what i do
ysabel..ysabel..


2004.07.04_T06-07_ysabel

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"how could i notice only now?"
"i wanna touch your face just to know if you're real"
"in every crowd i look for your face"

love burn

a night alone
in a place i've never been before
so many strangers in sight
a blessed air to breathe tonight

i sat beside
a stranger i've seen in green
the night is young with air so thin
sweet dirty sweat touched our skin

crash and burn
while my hands barely touched yours
and my eyes chased yours..a tear, such a lovely moist
too shy to think that this night is ours
too afraid to hear a word from your mouth
and there we stayed together
your smiles spelled forever

this heart of mine
a safety companion
and i made you smile with no flowers at all

and as the night had gone cold
and both our names were told
and the looks were now sweet
and my feet got swept away
but your words so pleasing
from your lips that looked so juicy
with your eyes that shined like jewelry
and as we walked on by
the night suddenly said goodbye
and you waved and smiled
and i almost died
and that's it..that was it..that was it..
that was it..that was it..the beginning..


2006.07.02_61_love burn

2007.07.01_96

"sabay-sabay, sama-sama tayong gumapang mula sa kawalan ng malay sa mga bagay na gusto nating malaman.
umakyat patungo sa isang kamalayan na hindi natin inaasahang magiging ganito kahirap.
nakikisimpatya sa isa't-isa para magkaroon ng lakas ng loob na magpatuloy, na huwag bumitaw sa kamay ng bawat isa sa paligid.
pero bakit kailangang humantong sa ganito?
bakit ngayong malapit na tayong makatayo sa sarili nating mga paa, kailangan pang biguin ang pinakamahina na pinaka-nangangailangan ng tulong?
bakit kailangang iwanan ang isa na walang makakapitan?
bakit kailangang titigan siya habang bumabagsak?
dahil ba sa pagiging inutil?
salamat mga 'kaibigan'!"


2007.07.01_96

robot

still thinking of you
still wishing what i thought is true
still can't manage to
ignore every single thought of you

still dreaming of you
still craving to be living with you
still can't forget you
still standing still, waiting for you

look down
look at me
you're too high
can't you see

don't you know that there's someone down here
looking up to you
don't you know that my wounds won't heal
if you
if you leave me standing still

still wanting you
still doing everything i can do
still can't reach you
but still i'm trying to

i don't know what to do
can't accept what's true
how can i reach you
if you're flying too high
while you're floating up above
i'm standing on the ground
wishing you would come down here
waiting for you as i stand still


2004.06.30_A06-10_robot

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yvette barbra

smileys

midnight falls
but i know you're still awake
staring at the ceiling
you don't know what you're seeing

feeling pity
tumbling around your bed
thinking of somebody
someone who i wish was me

the whole world knows you
your lips and killer smiles
but i know you're not satisfied
living your own life

you're so happy
in front of everybody
but you see a stranger
when you look at the mirror
you feel pain
and you cry alone
it's always raining
inside your home
it's always raining
inside your room

destiny
is not very friendly
you need somebody
someone who i wish was me

you
you surround my world
i wish you could see
i really wish you could


2004.06.30_A06-09_smileys

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karla ysabel

oliver martin

6 years later

lucy dreaming..it's not over

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jane..it's over

change your cover

jane..you're sober

change your bottle