bless

she dared step into my mind
though to dare is to understand
but all the words spoken
and all the facts dealt with
now spiraling down the drain
threatening to leave

she slept in the arms of the question
into the embrace of the skeptic
but all the worlds spoken
and all the possibilities
have stepped out of the realm
of the existent territory

then was the time
but then is not the now
why was in disregard
but why was not the how

liberated
perplexity was my lullaby
deliberated
uncertainty was my kiss of goodbye

she held hands with the cosmos
and as if she snared its vastness
but through all the perfections
and all the spellbinding
belief is again enthralled
by the certain doubting

the tears have yet to drench me
the sheets have yet to drown me
but them seem being attracted
by the most intricate

i never saw myself stepped on such hostile ground
i tried and stood firm but then she was gone
i couldn't find her anywhere
i couldn't even in the most intimate fire
i thought i'd see the glam of her hand when i look up at night
but no, it wasn't there, she wasn't there at all
she wasn't there in the first place


2013.09.30_bless