evil cupid

for most of the girls i dated before, (while), and after my long term relationship with one, i noticed a pattern. most of them are in a relationship. in a failing relationship. some are single, but this somewhat applies to them as well. here's what happens, especially on the ones in a failing relationship. i'd spend time with them. talk to them. think about them and tell them about it. show my heart and "soul" to them. and that's just being me, to people i like, which is not much. and then their comparison will start. "you do this, and he can't even do that". "you're more blah blah blah than him". you know, i have everything 1 up compared to their current partner. some may be true, but i guess most are just biased since in a failing relationship, we are quick to notice only the bad stuff. so there. they're girls. you show them you care, you stay within proximity, they are gonna, and will "fall in love". infatuation maybe. or just the feeling of being " at home", with me. whatever you technically call the real feeling is, girls will call it "love". and you know what i'd do? you know what the asshole in me would do? i'd suddenly drop them. just like that. it is my kind of disorder. i just can't fucking help it. like, fuck, it was almost only about the chase. i'd treat 'em so bad, they're gonna be left broken looking for someone for fixing. i'd drop them so hard from so high up, they're gonna be running back to the longing arms of their partners. the real home they've been with for however long it's been. and always..always..it would fix them. not one single instance i can remember that it did not. they would later realize how much of a stupid ass i am that their failing relationship would look heaven to them. so in hindsight, i fixed them. and it works for those singles, too. they'd find someone way better. i'm the fucking selfish evil cupid who would mess you up first so i could push you to the direction of your happiness. so there..you're welcome.

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i just sent this to one..thinking of sending it to all of them..maybe not..maybe not today.